Careless mistakes. Careless memories. My teenage life... breaks down in front of me. I only wanted to have fun. I only wanted to try it once. Why did they try to hurt me? They said it would be fun. Yet, they only lied. I thought they were my friends. I thought I could trust them. They only cared about themselves. Now I'm addicted. Addicted to careless things and to careless people. I know it was my fault but why did I have to be so... Careless!!!
Nisha blogged @ 10:44 PM



I am sitting on my bed, contemplating everything you ever said, I am starring at the light from my CD player that lights up red, wondering whatever went wrong. Then It hits me it hits me hard. Nothing ever did. Because it was wrong from the beginning. Giving my heart..the only thing I had left..after every fight, I gave it to him..only to have it stabbed with a knife,now the pain of a first love is neverending. I am crying now thinking on what to do next, my head tells me to let it go..just over look it. But I can't the pain is to much. Ever since I was little I never really had anyone..to love me, to really comfort me. I thought I found it but I was wrong.
Nisha blogged @ 10:35 PM



I am not a perfect person,
And I don't try to be.
I am just another imprisoned soul,
That is longing to be set free.

I don't want to be in this place anymore,
I don't want to shed anymore tears.
I'm sick of always hiding inside of myself,
This has gone on for too many years.

I don't want to show my emotions,
Or to tell you how I feel.
I just want to know the difference,
Between what is fake and what is real.

I'm just another lost soul,
That is waiting to be found.
I'm just another liability,
That you don't want around.

I'm just falling through the air,
And I'm about to hit the ground.
But I don't expect anyone to catch me,
Because no one wants me around.

No one really cares about me,
They just ignore me everyday.
No one really cares enough,
To even ask me if I'm okay.
Nisha blogged @ 10:24 PM



I don't know what's going on!! Life is just so unpredictable! & umm i guess he's gone!!! Totally gone from me.. My life... Well actually it does feel abit good cuz there won't be anymore calls at night from him, there won't be anymore stupid fights between us huh i don't know everything's just missing!! Though it's hard to forget him but I think it's time stop thinking of him & move on in life... This is the time i've gotta be strong! I hate him & I m so gonna show him how happy I m without him!
Nisha blogged @ 11:25 PM




Nisha blogged @ 9:41 PM



Soo far everything's going good.. Bi is back to s'pore & we talked very well. :) School has started & it just feels so darn good to be back to school haha.. :) Though everything's going good & umm happy... I still do have a little frustration in me for the past few days.. I've been suffering from stomach cramps!! & it really seriously hurts fucking badly!!! && because of this damn pain it's been days since I've ate well! Haizz soo miss food hahaha.. :D Anyway something important I wanted to share.. Last night almost before bed time.. There was a blast of between my parents!! Haiyooo I tell you it was so damn stressful! Although I'm not involved in it I don't know lah it's still irritating! I mean I can like hear those harsh words, the screaming of my mum, the shouting of my dad & the fucking embarrassment of letting everyone know about it!!! Actually it's stupid lah... Nowadays they quarrel for almost everything && how the hell am I suppose to live my life in such a family!! Aiyoo stress! Allaaa I don't care lah.. I don't know.. Huh... Oh yaarrr & last night bi text me that he'll call me but he didn't, maybe he slept or something I don't know! I'm mad! Hmm whatever let's see what he says huh...
Nisha blogged @ 6:32 PM



My bi's coming bk to s'pore today... Yeay i'm soo darn happy!! :) Though i still do feel abit afraid that he might be mad at me for not replying his texts.. Well i didn't do it on purpose!!! My phone no more prepaid!! && ahh i don't know lah.. Huh.. Ohh please tell me he's not mad at me... There was never a day i didn't think of him.. & everytime I saw his text it really hurted me inside that i couldn't reply him!! I cried everyday thinking of him & how much i missed him.. There was never a day I was happy cuz he's not here with me.. I really miss you a lot bi!! Please please please call me once you're back to s'pore.. Omg I'm bagging lol it's all cuz of LOVE!!! Just for LOVE!!! & you know what right now one of my good friend is advicing me like hell!! Aiyooo soo boring lah that guy haha...
Nisha blogged @ 6:35 PM