Careless mistakes. Careless memories. My teenage life... breaks down in front of me. I only wanted to have fun. I only wanted to try it once. Why did they try to hurt me? They said it would be fun. Yet, they only lied. I thought they were my friends. I thought I could trust them. They only cared about themselves. Now I'm addicted. Addicted to careless things and to careless people. I know it was my fault but why did I have to be so... Careless!!!
Nisha blogged @ 10:44 PM



I am sitting on my bed, contemplating everything you ever said, I am starring at the light from my CD player that lights up red, wondering whatever went wrong. Then It hits me it hits me hard. Nothing ever did. Because it was wrong from the beginning. Giving my heart..the only thing I had left..after every fight, I gave it to him..only to have it stabbed with a knife,now the pain of a first love is neverending. I am crying now thinking on what to do next, my head tells me to let it go..just over look it. But I can't the pain is to much. Ever since I was little I never really had anyone..to love me, to really comfort me. I thought I found it but I was wrong.
Nisha blogged @ 10:35 PM



I am not a perfect person,
And I don't try to be.
I am just another imprisoned soul,
That is longing to be set free.

I don't want to be in this place anymore,
I don't want to shed anymore tears.
I'm sick of always hiding inside of myself,
This has gone on for too many years.

I don't want to show my emotions,
Or to tell you how I feel.
I just want to know the difference,
Between what is fake and what is real.

I'm just another lost soul,
That is waiting to be found.
I'm just another liability,
That you don't want around.

I'm just falling through the air,
And I'm about to hit the ground.
But I don't expect anyone to catch me,
Because no one wants me around.

No one really cares about me,
They just ignore me everyday.
No one really cares enough,
To even ask me if I'm okay.
Nisha blogged @ 10:24 PM



I don't know what's going on!! Life is just so unpredictable! & umm i guess he's gone!!! Totally gone from me.. My life... Well actually it does feel abit good cuz there won't be anymore calls at night from him, there won't be anymore stupid fights between us huh i don't know everything's just missing!! Though it's hard to forget him but I think it's time stop thinking of him & move on in life... This is the time i've gotta be strong! I hate him & I m so gonna show him how happy I m without him!
Nisha blogged @ 11:25 PM